I’m currently sitting in school with about an hour of a break in between my classes. Let me give you a little run down of last night and what I went through, again.
My sleep has been confusing
Yep. Basically, about a month ago, I started to experience some form of Insomnia. Insomnia is basically experiencing bad sleep, whether you wake up in the middle of the night, struggle to go to bed consistently, or if your sleep is just overall being slapped in the face day in and out. You feel like a zombie sometimes because your body isn’t getting the proper rest it needs. I wake up in the middle of the night like ”HELLO, WHY? IM FINE. I SHOULDN’T BE AWAKE”. Yeah man, i’ve been growing in frustration.
This morning, I got angry regarding this situation. I told my mom how ”it didn’t make sense” and how ”this isn’t something I usually go through” which makes it all the more confusing. So, I basically allowed my anger to get the best of me for 5-10 minutes as I wondered ”why is this happening?”
To give a bit of context, there’s been a lot going on, which I will get too in later posts. I’m tempted to think that my messed up ”sleep life” is part of all the things I’m currently going through, but I’m not sure. I’ve been praying for God to reveal to me if its from him, or if it’s just my body being weird
The same lesson learned, again
When I got angry, I immediately knew I was in the wrong. I was reminded of how silly my complaint is. Yes, it is frustrating to have this happening. Yes, as someone who loves sleep and needs all the sleep he can get, it is not ideal. Although, with that, I felt God reminding me to settle down, and relax. I remembered how blessed I truly am. I remember a few years ago when I started to realize all the blessings I had in my life, whether big or small. This simple ”realization” led to a great deal of appreciation and thanks towards God for what he has done in my life. It truly is that, when you look at what you have and are grateful for it, you forget about what you don’t have.
And this, this is where I messed up today. I forgot completely everything God has and had blessed me with. Here’s what I mean:
A) I woke up today; das a blessing
B) I woke up healthy; das two blessings
C) I woke up to food; das three blessings baby!
D) I woke up to a loving family; das FOUR blessings! WOW
E) I have clothes to wear, a God to talk too, a car to drive, a school to learn from, friends to see, THE LIST GOES ON
My point is: No matter what, I am BLESSED. As for you, the reader, no matter WHAT, you are blessed. Lets learn from this, and thank God for what we have, instead of complaining about what we don’t have.
Lord, thank you for today and for my blessings. Help me to be more grateful and understanding, no matter my current situation. Amen.